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Hello, and welcome to Lemonade Tales! Pardon the dust while I get things rolling. I hope you enjoy the stories of inspiration, courage, and grace. I am humbled by each and every person and their personal struggles. This is the …

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Baring your soul is like giving a speech naked!

When I first started thinking about writing and sharing my stories and the stories of the people who have inspired me through the Lemonade Tales, I didn’t realize how scary it would be. For me and for those that are sharing as well.
 
So many of the storytellers have had moments of emotional pause and have shared more with me about their extraordinary experiences than with their families and friends. I am humbled by their bravery and courage to share their stories with the world.
 
I thought sure… I can share my trials and tribulations with others. I want to help them see they are not alone and hopefully show people that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sounds easy enough. But what I didn’t know is how personally challenging it is to share some of your darkest moments. Those gut-wrenching stories that you may not be proud of or that have been so incredibly challenging that they made you cry for months or even years. Sharing these stories makes me feel naked and completely exposed to the world.
 
Now, most folks wouldn’t know that I am actually an introvert. Don’t get me wrong. I really like people, but I am quite shy about things that are so very personal in my life as I think most people are. I have been called a good actress because I can put on a smile and work a room like nobody’s business.

But deep inside I have the same insecurities as everyone else. Will they like me? Do I look ok? And am I saying things that matter? I am not doing this (acting and smiling) to be fake. I am very authentic in every relationship I have. What you see is what you get, but I think we humans all have the need to be accepted and we cleverly show only certain bits of ourselves to the outside world.
 
Our families are probably the only social group that sees us from a deeper understanding of who we really are fundamentally as a person. They have watched us grow up, make mistakes, pay the consequences of those mistakes, and have for the most part (if you are lucky) loved us unconditionally.

We are not encouraged to reveal who we really are at work or professionally because those who are even more insecure than us may use it against us. Authenticity may be seen as a sign of weakness. Sad. Really sad. I am not sure how that will ever change. I can only say that I am not one to do that to others. I want to build deeper relationships with those I work with.
 
I think I would say I am practicing being more vulnerable in all my relationships. How? I have had to knock down some pretty tall and thick walls, but the gifts that have been given back to me have been beyond amazing. I have to really work hard to be open and vulnerable — to not be afraid of being hurt. To be ok with people not liking my work, or even not liking me as my work is now so very personal.
 
But I feel the relief of being who I am and the ease with which my days are lived. This far outweighs that fear. My support system has also helped me lean into the fear. I am a work in progress and I have to try every day to not let the fear take control of my life or prevent me from finding what makes me happy. I have never been more excited, so I am just going to buckle myself in and hold on for the ride of my life.

Anyone want to join me?

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